What i am waiting ??

My first thought is ‘nothing’,

but I realize that I wait for things all the time . . .

wait for Love,
wait for my husband,
wait for Happiness,
wait for payday to buy food,
wait for appointments,
wait in line . . .
but in my inner life
I don’t wait for much.
I do confess to a kind of waiting I sometimes experience . . .
it is a feeling of dread–
that my happiness might be taken away from me . . .
not often
but sometimes.
I was unhappy for most of my life,
that now that I experience it